Change despair

Everything that I've done here
Into one in keeping with...
Some earned conviction, some stagnation,
Some change despair

Disappointment and odds
In a costume you can't take off
I leave it behind. I know that
This time I get in for free

Our latest rendition lame
Reincarnate, return the same
Still the best times are her now
Now that I'm bored, now that I'm numb

Done, I know this is wrong
Safe in that stance but incomplete
Leave it behind
I know that this time I get in for free

Some of it's habitual
sometimes the change is not enough
And in the lost empathy
memories of better days