Bona fide push over

I am alone and feeling deprived
maybe it's because i don't know what's inside
of my heart, and in my mind
when all my thoughts are kept inside
some of my thoughts deal with death
but most deal with happiness
of a girl that i can see
but she's not here next to me
once i thought of a time
when everything was fine
and everyone just liked me
for trying to be me
so now i am alone
with no one to call my own
thinking of the time that has passed
which could have been a real blast
i always thought way too hard
about problems people face in everyday life
i know thinking too much is not good for you
but when you are lonely its something to do