Blue study

Somewhere between my tongue and cheek
I can feel the hands on me
Pulls me in so we are face to face
I don't want to see it, I don't want to see
Hold my head up, can't avert my eyes
Spots and rats on me, I don't want to see
Claw the ground up, get me out of this
Never wanted this, never needed this!

And you left me and I left you
And you left me and I left you, too

Chair is stained and I can't stay awake
Bring forth evidence to keep me sane
I can't keep this riddle locked inside
Seven ways to keep my secrets tied

Can't believe this, I belong in chains
Separated, it was me and something else
Now I'm numbing, get me out of this
Never wanted this, never needed this! And you left me and I left you
And you left me oh, but then I left you and:
And you left me and I left you
And you left me and I left you, too

Arms stretched out, giving thanks to pain
Spotlight looking down, I'm ashamed
Kneeling with my forehead to the ground
I can't help but flinch before I'm found

I don't need you! can't you see behind?
Doesn't matter now, doesn't matter anymore!
Maybe made me, get me out of this
Never wanted this, never needed this!

And you left me and I left you
And you left me and motherfucker,
Then I left you and
And you left me and I left you
And you left me and I left you, too

Safe! I just want to be safe!
Safe! I just, want to, be safe!
Safe! don't you want to be safe?
Safe! why can't you let me be, safe?