Bloodshot rooms

What should i do with this rose i got for you?
once intense colors and smells now fade away
i didn't even leave my bed today.
surrender me in misery
exhausting thoughts enveloping
mirror, mirror on the wall you muddle, mislead
No solace in this quiet moment
thoughts on fire run deep
toss and turn, i feel the burn, if i could sleep. . .
With eyes open in my bloodshot room
i rise up in the dark, pace around, lie back down,
i realize how far you are.
Rewind in my head replay slow motion every word i said
rewind in my head replay slow motion every word you said
i wish that we flowed, i wish that we growed
i wish that i was holding you as my very own
seems i remember things, things that i regret seem to follow me
when i¹m trying to sleep.