Bi-polar

I haven't felt so alive in years
the sun is shining down on me
my eyes are welling up with tears
tears of joy, tears of ecstasy
Emotions i once kept concealed
now flow freely like a river
life's great mysteries revealed
love's great promised delivered
I hate my life i want to die
i was just pretending all this time
a mask i wear so i don't bare
my soul to the cold, harsh world out there
try to prevail but only fail
each time on a grander and grander scale
my life is worthless and so am i
i hate my life i want to die
The landscape rises to meet my feet
the sky descends to fill my arms
for once i finally feel complete
for once i know i can't be harmed
All i know is light and love
i feel that i could live forever
while others' troubles seem to grow
i have no problems whatsoever
I hate my life i want to die
i was just pretending all this time
a mask i wear so i don't bare
my soul to the cold, harsh world out there
try to prevail but only fail
each time on a grander and grander scale
my life is worthless and so am i
i hate my life i want to die
The epiphany that came to fall
finally helped me reconcile
what i felt wasn't joy at all
all this time it was just denial
I hate my life i want to die
i was just pretending all this time
a mask i wear so i don't bare
my soul to the cold, harsh world out there
try to prevail but only fail
each time on a grander and grander scale
my life is worthless and so am i
i hate my life i want to die