Before my friends do

I think I hope I die before my friends do
Because the alternative makes my stomach hurt sometimes
When I say "friends" I mean family I like too
The second tear friends I could horribly get through

Now my life has shame (on me now)
This is not nostalgia, this is not the past
And if it's gonna end external like a stupid car crash
Regardless of my body, regardless of my weight
Wouldn't it be nice if I could say
"I won't change and you won't change, if we could both agree to stay the same
Well then for once in this life I would not complain, if we could both agree to stay the same"

Let me tell you about this crazy list
The best relative order of the people I know's deaths
According to partners, handlings, etcetera, etcetera, etcetera, yeah
So let's be safe because it's on me
I have spacesuits for you and a spacesuit for me
Spacesuits for everyone, spacesuits for everyone
Spacesuits for everyone, spacesuits for everyone

This is not nostalgia, this is not the past
And if it's gonna end external like a stupid car crash
Regardless of my body, regardless of my weight
Wouldn't it be stupid if I were to say
"I won't change and you won't change, and we could both agree to stay the same
Well then for once in this life I would not complain, if we could both agree to stay the same"

I hope I die before my friends do