Bad disease

Well there is something about watching a crime,
it makes me wanna go out and make it all mine
It's something about seeing you fight,
it makes me wanna go out tonight

I got a bad disease
I got a bad disease to fall into,
yeah it's true

There's something about seeing him die
that puts it all into perspective, and I
wanna stay home, be left alone
Someone make my mind up so I don't have to decide

I got a bad disease
I got a bad disease to fall into,
yeah I do

There's some reason why I can't sit still,
every waking moment I feel so unfulfilled
I drive and I drown, but I don't know how
Baby, when I'm sleeping, if it's less like I'm dreaming Oh my god,
I got a bad disease
I got a bad disease, it's got me down
on my knees

There's a fear I have, a feeling real bad,
I'm final if I find out that I'm not, I'll be sad
I try to cry to thoughts in the night,
oh, they got me thinking I'd be happier just drinkin'

It's not true
I got a bad disease
I got a bad disease, it's got me down
on my knees
I got a bad disease
will no one help me please?
Not even you?