A letter to someone like you

Lie!
sometimes this beauty is choking me
but at least its your hands at my throat
your lashes brush against my cheek
coupled with your breath on my neck
the world around you falls away and i will still be there
i know my words are like daggers but they cut me too
and i am sorry for all the fuc*** up things i say i didn't mean it
and i never realized that i can be what i hate
lets be happy with what we have, enjoy the beauty in these days
sometimes we'll laugh sometimes we'll scream no one said caring was easy
i know there was a time when emotions felt like pulling teeth
sometimes i felt so souless i couldn't even look at me
it's pathetic to hate who you are and it feels like hell to change
but i'll be damned if i push you away
i remember when my dreams were dying
and i damned the sun, i damned the sun to pieces
i carved hateful thoughts into my chest
then you took my hand and nothing, no nothing has ever felt the same