433 (hypothetical situation)

I'm less than nothing and holding my nerves
Exposed and lonely,
addiction draws me near
Designed to crush me a six year
haze as the substance lets me down
Cause it's not real and that's why
It's how I always want to feel so let's
die before the secrets get revealed
I'm falling over from scratches built through time
For timeless mistakes,
my memories dissolve and all I know are these scars
And it's not real and that's why
It's how I always want to feel so let's die,
before the secrets get revealed
I've tried but nothing can ever appeal
and if you don't mind I'd like to throw it all away
Well I've been down that road,
the sober soldier
I doubt I'll make it home so get me away from here,
before I fall apart
Cause it's easy to do and
it feels and it seems true
But it's not real and that's why
Its how I always want to feel so let's die,
before the secret gets revealed
I've tried but nothing ever can appeal
and if you don't mind I'd like to throw it all away